Poetic

Love Is Escaping

21 May

We Enter God’s Name To Fool Our Own Perception

The mere sound of your voice used to bring the biggest smile to my face

And now I avoid it so that tears will not fall from the same eyes that used to get lost in your gaze

Something told me before this was a God thing,

And I’m starting to believe maybe it wasn’t God, but my flesh.

Psychology says our brains create false narratives that feel real due to internal biases, and emotions

Maybe I felt as though because I was being “a good Christian” “a good man” was now God's gift to me

But maybe that gift was wrapped and signed by myself

And I entered God’s name to fool my own perception

Kind of like how my mother used to forge my father’s names on my Christmas presents

Intelligence will have us playing God

Creating “blessings” He never ordain

So when you ask me if I still love you

If I was to tell the truth about me and you

Love is escaping…

Jordan Alexis

But We Want Love To Be Present

I think one of the hardest things to admit is that sometimes we confuse what we want with what God said.

We hear preachers do it every Sunday to fill offering plates. Feeding us prophetic messages to make us feel alive. Like yes, because me saying I’m Christian and attending this beautiful church is enough to bring millions into my account tonight.

Now, every preacher does not preach false prophecy messages. Just like every love we felt was not necessarily untrue. But sometimes we must pose the question: was this love illustrated by God or by you?

Sometimes we just want to feel something. And when that feeling finally comes, we make someone fit into a picture we painted ourselves.

Psychology calls it confirmation bias, the tendency to interpret things in ways that confirm what we already desire to be true.

So when they say I love you, it’s easy to believe, because we made up our mind that this person is the one God sent to me.

Limerence is an obsession disguised as love. An infatuation. Limerence feels good in theory. But it’s not true love. It’s actually a state of mind many go through when love is escaping. Because how can someone you already made up in your mind you were spending eternity with pull away. This is our fate. We will make it.

But limerence isn’t love. It’s an illusion. A state of mind that cannot release the idea of being consumed. And while it might sound crazy in theory some of the most sane people go crazy for the sake of “love”. They say “love” makes you do crazy things. But in all honesty when you have to sit with yourself, the things you gave up, compromised, neglected, acted out of character, when you can no longer recognize the man in the mirror you should flee.